Out of Normal: The Duality of Me.

July 17, 2003

The Duality of Me.

More than once, someone close to me, in the real world, has mentioned to me that my online friends have no clue who I am, or that there are other parts to me that you all don't see. I have a news flash. There are parts of me that you all get to see, that my friends in the real world don't get to share in.

My RW friends get to hear me go on my conservative rants, screaming that I have nothing to apologize for, just because I am a white middle class male with an education and a job. You, my online friends, get to hear me wax poetic about a girl I once kissed in a drunken stupor and about my dream of rediscovering myself on a mountain-top.

Each part of me is very real and quite valid. I feel badly sometimes because I don't care to share some of my inner-most thoughts with them, or that I would feel embarassed to go on some of my rants with you all. It has been very interesting to see some quite unexpected posts and replies out of both my RW and online friends. I have actually seen Nost soften up a little bit, Crutch show his more "Feminine" side, and who all knows what else!?!?!

For several hours each day, I want to chuck it all, load up my truck and head for the mountains to start a new life. I make friends very easily wherever I go, and while I would miss my friends dearly, I would never be far from them via email. I would so love to have a community of friends, similar to "The Fray" . All of you are wonderful people, and all of you have full lives complete with families, loved ones, pets, and a grand scheme of life. I have been there, and I loved those things while I had them. I am in a different chapter now. Yes, I do have those in my life that I care very deeply for, and that care very deeply for me. The fact remains, however, that I am single. I lead a different life than my real life friends, and most of my online friends. I love all of you, and thank God for you daily, so please don't take that as an insult whatsoever.

Goodnight all, Im really tired.

Posted by Broch at July 17, 2003 09:51 PM

Comments

First I would not consider this post in any way an insult. I believe we all choose not to share parts of ourselves with RW/online friends. You've gotten my curiousity up. What leads you to believe that your "life" is so different from others? Being single......

Posted by: C. at July 18, 2003 08:15 AM

C., that is a hard one. I guess that my life isn't so different just because I am single, but because of some of my interests, and also just because of who I am. I would really like to have a group of friends, they could live anywhere, that I could send an email or call, and say, HEY! Why don't we all fly to vegas (or any other big city) and get together for the weekend. The friends I have now just can't do that. It's either a spousal issue, a child issue, a financial issue, or something. I have tried it many times, and everyone either strikes it down up front, or backs out at the last moment. Oh well, I have good friends nonetheless.

Posted by: Broch at July 18, 2003 12:11 PM

Vegas! Oh, I feel the need for a trip. If you give me enough lead time, I would do it.

Posted by: Tony at July 22, 2003 01:38 PM

Hey all this overtime I knew it had to be for something, nah, I hear the beach calling again.

Posted by: C. at July 22, 2003 11:02 PM

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