Out of Normal: Talked into it.

June 12, 2003

Talked into it.

Wanna know what has my @$$ chapped today? I have been challenged to be "Butt honest" and share with all of you exactly why I am feeling all hostile and irritable. I have a dehumidifier running right now in my "Garden apartment," in which the windows are all nailed shut. Dehumidifier=heat, nailed windows=no ventilation. As I sit there in the heat, my blood is boiling over my new circumstances. A little over a year ago I had a gorgeous wife, a beautiful home, 2 dogs that just rocked, and was looking so forward to starting a family. Before any of you hit me with "But Broch, it's just stuff....," don't go there. This isn't 100% about the stuff, but about having a home (not just a house,) a wife that I completely trusted with my life, a clearly defined future, and the planning of bringing our children into the world.

Yes, it is ALSO about the stuff. Just because I am practicing voluntary simplicity doesn't mean that I don't like to be surrounded by nice things. It means that I understand the opportunity cost of HAVING the nice things, and am willing to concede to that. People, I barely have room to THINK in my new place. What little is left of my belongings is stacked from floor to ceiling in what should be my bedroom. I guess that I am going to have to get rid of pretty much what little that I have left from my life.

The one thing that I have escaped with is my character, my mind and my dignity. Other than that, I have a 12 year old truck, my computer, my stereo, and an ex that I don't trust very much anymore.

Good Fcuking night.

Posted by Broch at June 12, 2003 07:06 PM

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Loved your post, Broch. Rant, rave, let it ALL out. Hammer away at the shit and what you'll have left is hammered away shit, a sweaty brow, AND some teeny sense of satisfaction that you've aired your laundry. It's worth it. And if you get NO comments in response, pay that NO heed. Check your stats. People are still reading. I'm still reading. I'm nodding my head. I understand in my own way what this MAJOR change in your life means, especially at an age when things are "supposed" to be settling down. This is YOUR blog. Keep it that way. Say what you need to say. Now, about "Have a fcuking good night" ...

Posted by: Random Liberal Girl at June 12, 2003 11:49 PM

Okay Carla Beth, you just made me laugh for the first time today. No fair, you cheated! hehehe. Thanks a million, you rock.

Posted by: Broch at June 13, 2003 12:05 AM

P.S. The spelling of Fcuking is a direct rip-off from Julie at www.perpetualkarma.com It allows a guilt free swearing experience. Each of you needs to head over her way right now and check out her AWESOME blog. I have been reading it for a few months, and it DOES INDEED rock my pants.

Posted by: Broch at June 13, 2003 12:08 AM

But what exactly do you mean by ROCK your pants?

Posted by: Random Liberal Girl at June 13, 2003 12:41 AM

Er, um, eh, well... I like it a lot.

Posted by: Broch at June 13, 2003 01:10 AM

You are strong, surrounded by many friends, when you are unable to identify with these types of feelings, I then will worry.

Posted by: C. at June 13, 2003 08:38 AM

I will refrain from excessive clich�s, but you know that these changes will get you into a better place in the future. You can want the stuff and the �normal� life and �normal� future�it�s okay to want those things�it doesn�t make you uncool (no matter what some jerk said to Dooce!) or shallow or anything. It makes you human. You�re still flexible and young in your head, and that�s what�s important. You�re just moving along, on your way to finding someone and someplace that supports a flexible future and an open mind. And I�m sure she will want a dog, too.

Posted by: Kim at June 13, 2003 10:12 AM

This is a good thing! Change. We always hate it while we're in the midst of it, and it always pisses us off. All we're really thinking about during that time is loss and what is no longer there. But that's just life making room for better things, but go ahead and rant or mourn. :-) Maybe you're just going through a late Saturn Return: http://www.newage-directory.com/saturn.html

Posted by: April at June 13, 2003 11:14 AM

Ill give you $10.00 for you dignity.

Posted by: crutch at June 13, 2003 02:28 PM

Sold!

Posted by: Broch at June 13, 2003 03:43 PM

Shoot, if I would have read this earlier, I would have invited you over to go shooting this weekend. Might have made you feel better.

Posted by: Tony at June 16, 2003 11:19 AM

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