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February 17, 2003

Better than lotto....

32 years ago I began looking. Today I found it. It didn't come from a holyman. It didn't come from a shopping trip. I didn't have to interview for it. I didn't have to buy it a drink. Tony Robbins was no where in sight. I didn't fall and hit my head. It wasn't in a book, or on a tape. Lightning did not strike. Thunder did not roll. It didn't come in a pill, an elixer, or a supplement. No yoga position sustained for any length of time could possibly bring it on.

I looked in a bottle, it wasn't there. I looked on mountain tops, it was not there. I didn't find it in a fire on a cold night. I didn't find it in the arms of a woman. Countless fortunes have been spent looking for it. Wars have been fought for it.

What I found was inner peace and clarity. I cannot begin to explain what they are to you, or show you the road to find them. My blood pressure is much lower and my resting heart rate has probably dropped by 20. The tinted glasses that I have viewed the world through are gone. Imagine this, you are in a room with a guitar player, playing an acoustic guitar. You have 3 or 4 cotton balls shoved into each ear. Then someone takes the cotton from your ears, and you finally hear each subtle note. That is what this experience has been like. I have a personality type of ENFP. For those of you who know what that is, or know me, you know that my soul has never been complete.

I can only tell you what my moment was like, then you can go on your journey. I realized that there is no destination in life. Life is a journey. Enjoy each moment. Feel what is going on around you, drink it in. Control is an illusion, worry about yourself, and how to change your perspective. Worry not about war and conflict. Those are battles to be fought by others. YOU HAVE FREEDOM. Use it. Go where you want. Do what you want. Look in the mirror. That is you. Learn to love that person.

Im free.

Posted by Broch at February 17, 2003 08:07 PM

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Woohoo! Go Broch! Congratulations... :-) That's something I've been working on for the last five years, too... learning how to love me for who I am. Good for you!

Posted by: April at February 17, 2003 09:01 PM

I you smoking reefer again?

Posted by: crutch at February 18, 2003 12:56 AM

Crutch mon, no, life is good. I had an epiphany (was that her name again?) hehehe, just kidding, no life is good man. Couldn't ask for anything better right now!

Posted by: Broch at February 18, 2003 01:16 AM

life isn't a journey, it's a beginning; and yes, there is a destination. you've just figured out what to do with yourself in between.

Posted by: nose at February 18, 2003 07:16 AM

That's amazing; I'm an ENFP too. My favorite description of us is at http://www.personalitypage.com/ENFP.html - it's the one that seems most accurate to me. Not entirely so, but enough. I'm glad you've found peace.

Posted by: Angel at March 21, 2003 05:08 PM

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